Category Archives: local anthropology

Non Urgent Emergency Room

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1. The Q18 bus/
To Astoria E.R./
Afraid of Doctors/
#haiku

2. Dirty bus windows/
Obscure the present future/
Adding foreboding/
#haiku

3. I’m afraid of this/
Emergency room visit/
I’m afraid to say/
#haiku

4. Injuries remind/
Me of my mortality/
This life is finite/
#haiku

5. This bus ride: noisy/
Conversations of others/
Matter to speakers/
#haiku

6. E.R. Clerks are good/
Working for creaky system/
Insurance stays paid/
#haiku

7. Little girl bleeding/
Another casualty/
Of Woodside sledding/
#haiku

8. Father holds ice-pack/
Doting on his brave daughter/
In accented love/
#haiku

9. We’re all refugees/
From our usual sound health/
In the waiting room/
#haiku

10. Concentration camp/
People Waiting for health care/
From indifference/
#haiku

11. Mother & Son wait/
Hijab & Hip-Hop visit/
Injured family/
#haiku

12. Nurse turns son away/
Says: “you can translate” winking/
Letting both enter/
#haiku

13. Old man tells story/
Angling for pain killers/
Spurious details/
#haiku

14. Facts shouted indict/
Hospitals, projects & clerk/
An expert patient/
#haiku

15. Russians, Brazilians/
Jamaicans and the forlorn/
In “Camp Waiting Room”/
#haiku

16. Bengali man’s scarf/
Worn like a scott-plaid head-wrap/
Burberry hijab/
#haiku

17. Unfortunate day/
Spent in crowded waiting room/
Small, slow tragedy/
#haiku

18. Wedding ring removed/
Gold dust in the hospital/
From cut wedding rings/
#haiku

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19. Got a shot for pain/
This dislocated finger/
Will be re-wrestled/
#haiku

20. Ketorolac shot/
Burns while injecting my arm/
Kills the pain quickly/
#haiku

21. Three left hand Ex-Rays/
With an overworked techie/
And no lead blankets/
#haiku

22. The X-rays can’t say/
How bad my dislocation/
Or where my day went/
#haiku

23. Tiny finger fracture/
And a hand surgeon visit/
The day crawls forward/
#haiku

24. A blind mother dotes/
On a cute nauseous daughter/
Explaining unseen/
#haiku

25. Bus heading back home/
Hand throbbing insistently/
Glad to be outside/
#haiku

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[Annotated] Dawn

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[Annotated] Morning Meditation Haiku

13. I love my mornings/
Where I’m alone with my thoughts/
(Seeing connections)/
#haiku

A. I rise painfully/
Early existing alone/
Where I contemplate/
#haiku

B. This time before dawn/
Where I can think for myself/
Is precious to me/
#haiku

14. The complexity/
Of my cluttered life reveals/
My life’s harmony/
#haiku

C. The contemplation/
Morning alone time gives me/
Permits me to see/
#haiku

D. The plain facts require/
Insight and contemplation/
To be clarified/
#haiku

15. The mechanisms/
Allowing my happiness/
Are revealed to me/
#haiku

E. When I examine/
The components of my life/
I see I am blessed/
#haiku

F. Blessings aren’t magic/
Or some gift given by G_d/
They’re just perception/
#haiku

16. Each complicated/
Asset or embarrassment:/
Opportunity/
#haiku

G. Particular facts/
Can be opportunities/
With some adjustments/
#haiku

H. When I step away/
And ignore disappointment/
Life is always good/
#haiku

17. The mechanical/
Nature of mistakes & joys/
Grind out my heaven/
#haiku

I. Events examined/
Should be interpreted well/
To find the blessings/
#haiku

J. Possibilities/
Fail to materialize/
To bring more chances/
#haiku

18a. Smoothing rough edges/
Takes some painful polishing/
Understood alone/
#haiku

18b. Smoothing rough edges/
Requires painful polishing/
Understood later/
#haiku

K. Remediating/
Life’s problems are sometimes gifts/
The work is the gift/
#haiku

L. It is with distance/
That we can see benefits/
Of life’s small problems/
#haiku

19. My meditation/
& morning contemplation/
Expose my blessings/
#haiku

M. My observation/
Transforms as if alchemy/
Life into Heaven/
#haiku

N. Find your alchemy/
Of optimistic thinking/
By contemplating/

#haiku

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Staying Off Facebook

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29a. Staying off Facebook/
I miss My digital friends/
So I write letters/
#haiku

29c. Envelopes & stamps/
Are not as ubiquitous/
As email accounts/
#haiku

29d. But postal letters/
Have a physicality/
That pleases people/
#haiku

29e. When you write letters/
You are thinking while writing/
It’s meditative/
#haiku

29f. Writing on paper/
Is meditation with pens/
Thinking of others/
#haiku

29b. Writing real letters/
In this new email epoch:/
Passive aggressive/
#haiku

29g. People feel burdened/
Returning thoughtful letters/
Sitting with a pen/
#haiku

29h. Email’s so easy/
It’s generally done without/
Meditative thought/
#haiku

29i. Writing on paper/
Surprises you with the thoughts/
Your hands scribbled down/
#haiku

29j. So write me letters/
Postcards and physical things/
So I can see you/
#haiku

Jumbled Thoughts

20120728-091415.jpg(Two days of haikus/
Thinking of eternity*/
And base pop culture/
#haiku *RIP Dr. Bob)

7/27/12

1. When you think of me/
Remember how I love life/
In all little ways/
#haiku

2a. This day we travel/
Pregnant with symbolism/
Uninterpreted/
#haiku

2b. This day we travel/
Pregnant with symbolism/
Gives birth to our dreams/
#haiku

3a. Read possibilities/
Choice is your secret language/
Personal value/
#haiku

3b. Speak possibilities/
Utter your secret language/
Declare Values/
#haiku

4a. Interpret your life/
Create meanings from actions/
Like Life is watching/
#haiku

4b. Interpret your life/
Create meanings from actions/
Like G_d is watching/
#haiku

5. Creation watches/
Humans’ crazy behavior/
Without our judgement/
#haiku

6. We do what we want/
& live with consequences/
That we have chosen/
#haiku

7. Consequences ain’t/
Judgements from a loving G_d/
Just random outcomes/
#haiku

7/28/12

8. The ceremonies/
debased for mass consumption/
Banal audience/
#haiku

9a. Pleasing ev’ryone:/
Meaningless utterances:/
Truth hurts somebody/
#haiku

9b. Pleasing ev’ryone:/
Meaningless utterances:/
Honesty hurts some/
#haiku

10. Faithful adherence/
To beliefs that predate words/
Will allow your growth/
#haiku

11a. Popular Culture/
Distilled 4 television/
Erases dissent/
#haiku

11b. Popular Culture/
Distilled 4 television/
Is a tone deaf song/
#haiku

12a. Pleasing the masses/
With bread and circus will not/
Improve anything/
#haiku

12b. Pleasing the masses/
Keeping us comfortable/
Is a noble cause/
#haiku

13. Improving the world/
Can’t please the comfortable/
Or be convenient/
#haiku

14. The public commons:/
#openingceremonies/
Provided are good/
#haiku

15. We need shared events/
To build community on/
& we need dissent/
#haiku

16. People are social/
We need each-other to live/
Even “enemies”/
#haiku

DMV

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DMV

1. Hell’s Special labyrinth/
Has hundreds of willing souls/
Waiting to drive cars/
#haiku

2. Waiting for my turn/
In alpha-numeric line/
Of limited hope/
#haiku #obedience

3. Priv’leges granted/
Are opportunities lost/
And rights conceded/
#haiku

4. Philosophically/
Power conceded to state/
Is diminished right/
#haiku

5. Practically, powers/
Shared with others benefit/
All humanity/
#haiku

6. It’s reluctant faith/
That makes us share through the state/
(It’s all we can do)/
#haiku

7. Bureaucracy sucks/
But it is how we manage/
To intermingle/
#haiku

(I went to the DMV and while I was in the preliminary line I saw a tattoo with a swastika [REALLY, it was on the tricep of the lumberjack of the tattoo in this blurry photo])

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Resistance is Poetry

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Resistance is Illegible

Resistance is illegible/
No agenda to fulfill/
It is screamed to re-used beats/
& spray painted on public streets

Resistance isn’t public yet/
It’s outside communication/
Strangers’ loud dissatisfaction/
Mumbled in different versions/

Resistance has no address yet/
It couch surfs those acquaintances’/
That know things could be tolerable/
In alleyways and cubicles/

Resistance is inchoate still/
It is Demand’s Sticky Fetus/
Gestating in Discontent’s womb/
Demanding its right to exist/

Resistance has no sacred text/
It’s not been articulated/
Once described it’s deconstructed/
Resistance is just existence/

Resistance lacks halls of power/
It has no expressive clothing/
It doesn’t wear expensive suits/
Resistance sits on public streets/

Resistance’s unrecognizable/
It fulfills no stereotype/
It is not white, Black nor Colored/
Resistance is unknowable/

Resistance lives everywhere/
Dressing in the local clothing/
Whispering “things could be better”/
Try to listen to her grumbling/

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The Glossy Shopping Bag

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She hurried up the avenue looking for shelter. The rain, now biblical in intensity, was filling the glossy bag. Her clothes were soaked, but they’d dry. The bag, advertising a Madison Avenue shop in rigid plasticized tag was all that she had left of her image of consumer prowess. The shiny bag with the cotton cord handles represented her dream life which her earnings could not support. She had kept it crisp and undamaged through the weeks of her homelessness, folding it flat as she slept on the F train. When the rain accumulated was a pint even, the handles and the bottom seams simultaneously failed. The city papers, her clean underwear and a water bottle fell to the sidewalk. Her homelessness was laid bare to the doorman who helped her pick up the items. He got her a Gristedes’ bag, helped her organize her belongings, then asked her to move from under the Park Avenue awning he was bound to protect.

Autobiography for Class (Draft 2)

Stafford Gregoire

ENG101.1211

Professor Gregoire

30 April 2012

 

the shy[1] rebel

Stafford has always had a strange sense of the world. Even in 1st grade he admired the kid who couldn’t do the normal 1st grade assignment, “naming his parents and grandparents and where they were from.” “Tony” was a kid from down the block and his parents and parents were always around our block. They were from Cambridge, the town we lived in, Stafford could have done the assignment for Tony: “my parents and grandparents are from Cambridge, Massachusetts, just like me,” he should have said in Mrs. Pierce’s 1st grade class. Instead he wet himself in front of the class: “Stafford’s hero!” For some perverse reason, ever since then whenever Stafford encountered a “freak” who couldn’t or wouldn’t “behave normally,” he had a new hero. I think that this is because his parents told him to respect people who stood up for themselves, and never to shame children who refused to conform to the norms of society. Ever since then Stafford has elevated people who refused to conform to society. Personally, I think that he elevates eccentric people to defy conformity and make himself more unique.

As soon as Stafford grew up, he left home. Arrogant, he wanted to make his way in the world on his own as a bicycle messenger. He moved to New York City in 1979, just after the city went bankrupt and was allowed to default by the federal government. The crumbling city was perfect for Stafford because “[t]he small community often tolerates eccentricity. The city, on the contrary, rewards it” (Park, cited in Kidder 307). Like yeast in moist flour or hops in a brewery or a bully on a 3rd world police force, Stafford had found his perfect environment. It is a place where he can live the fantasy The Toronto Star reporter Cheney described as “[l]iving by your own skill and animal cunning, like a gladiator in the Roman amphitheatre, surrounded by fat and decadent citizens” (Cheney A1). Of course, that is a young man’s dream of rebellion. And if you look at most of these imaginary heroes of the street, they prefer to keep these fantasies to themselves. So Stafford lived his fantasy life of an urban warrior.

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Works Cited

Cheney, P. “Bicycle Couriers in Love with Life on Mean Streets.” Toronto Star, 27 March 1993, A1, A8. Print.

Kidder, Jeffrey. “Appropriating The City: Space, Theory, And Bike Messengers.” Theory & Society 38.3 (2009): 307-328. Academic Search Complete. Web. 23 Apr. 2012.

 

 


[1] passive aggressive

Executing Assignment

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I agreed to write/
The assignment I gave class/
I will stage it here/
#haiku

Kiko and Queens: Writing and Thinking and Plotting and Exploring

Litter on 58th StreetBeen up since 6:30 trying to write on Kiko, but not feeling the flow.  I have done some good writing (which I will include here) but it does not really press the story forward well.  (It starts here, and was last published here) Indeed, it has gone off in two interesting directions: 1. the people in the subdivided house he lives in, which could be thee start of the rooming house story and 2. assimilation as camouflage.  (Spoiler Alert: THIS IS FROM MUCH LATER IN THE STORY) First, let me insert what I’ve written, re-read it, and comment on it:

Kiko liked winning, but the attention was strange.  He had lived in New York for almost three years and he had been anonymous the whole time. He had stayed focused on working and the things of life like getting an apartment, paying bills, sending money home and the rest. Besides that his world was tiny: Mrs. Choi, Santayana, Mr. Duggan (the landlord), Gopi (the upstairs tenant who drives a cab), the Aldebot family (who have one of the other legal apartment in the building), and the Peruvian woman at the envios office where Kiko sent at least $100 back to his family every week (he never knew her name because he was shy, but they had stared and smiled foolishly every week).

The secret to success as a Mexican in New York was to be invisible.  Look as much like every other Mexican as you could: avoid personal attention. The average New Yorker, of each and every type, categorizes people into broad types.  This is both a method of taxonomy and navigation as “threat assessment.” Mexicans, to most Americans are just “hispanic.”

However, even to other Latinos, Mexicans fall into the indigenous tribes of their ancestors, so Kiko, being from the south, looked like Guatalatecas y Hondureños (o Catrachos). He had not assumed the city ways of the more cosmopolitan Mexicans, and so was never mistaken for the Salvadorans or Mexicans from the north.

The truth is Kiko is a New Yorker, shopping at the clothing stores of Jamaica and Corona, wearing the vaguely hip-hop inspired gear of the broad swath of Queens immigrants.  Indeed Gopi’s friend Ali had the exact same outfit (a vaguely Hilfiger-ish jeans and Armani-Exchange knock-off shirt, with an pair of fake Timberlands) last Friday after he had gone to mosque. Needless to say he had worn it in the manner befitting all Bengalis, with no Latino flair.

Where does assimilation end and camouflage begin?  All across Queens, from Jamaica to Astoria, men and women come from other parts of the world and try to adapt their personalities and styles to their new surroundings.  They imitate the happy well fed youths of Manhattan (where most of them work), their co-workers who serve as guides to this new world of New York, and any friends that they may have known back home (provided they respect the “friend”). They want to look like someone who belongs there, but not as if they are trying too hard.  Oddly, the best model for this camouflage is tourists from ciudad Mexico, Sao Paolo or Cartagena: wealthy children who have looked north on Television all of their lives. They adapt the MTV styles to Telefuturo realities back home and field test them on the streets of Manhattan.

 

I really like this, though it is a real distraction from the Bike Racer story I set out to write.  It strikes me as true in a way that I have not really read or seen anywhere else.  If I digress like this Kiko’s story will be a novel.  It has the outlines of the rooming house story I want to tell separately mixed in seemlessly with Kiko’s story.  In fact the only discordant note is the Peruvian love interest.  (I want to deal with inter-latino dating as a way to highlight most [gringo] New Yorker’s ignorance of the differences between the nations of the continent of South America).

The Irish American Landlord who didn’t flee immigration and multiculturalism to his Queens neighborhood will also be an interesting lens to look at Queens through.  His profiteering by subdividing his home into cells should prove an interesting examination of the freemarket and who benefits from it.  The question is do I make him an alcoholic or more of a conscious agent of change?

Gopi the cabbie (hindu?) and his friend Ali (muslim) could be an interesting arc. Indeed, as I write this the idea of making them lovers in the brokeback mountain vein strikes me as provocative.  One of them could start to be better assimilated and start to go to gay bars, while the other might need the approval of the home community.

Then we can heal the south asian muslim-hindu rift as well as explore the freedom that a megacity offers. Hindu-Muslim tensions would be a perfect metaphor for Arab-Israeli strife, just jettisoning the eurocentrism in most examinations of these problems.

Kingston, the West-Indian with a city job is a wild card.  He could be anything from “Slim Nate” the addict-dealer of “My Belletristic Bottom” to a hard-working yardie hustler who knows what to do in a huge unruly city like New York.  Indeed his Caribbean  experience with lawlessness and bureaucracy (what if he has a London back-story) might make him the ultimate trickster figure in a seemingly civilized but really ungovernable New York. Maybe he can know a slim Nate, an amoral petty addict and dealer who has a similar job with the City.

I guess What I’d like is some votes on which way to go with this from any of my regular readers (though I am hardly a regular writer).  Do you think I should spread the Kiko story out, or cut this from it.  Since it is out of sequence, and there are pages and pages of plotting and writing between where the last place I left Kiko and here after he wins his first race, where this is from, I submit to you what I should do, stay focused on Kiko’s racing, OR, spread it out to his life as a New Yorker.

Please vote.